WOW!

Soooo... I have an amazing life!

This amazing life now looks like me not working for my old boss/former husband day in, day out. It also looked like being unable to access the internet on a regular basis because my father's WIFI was being squonky. Getting on the internet required me to get up, possibly shower or at least put on a good coat of deodorant, put in my contacts, get dressed, run a comb through my hair, put on a hat if it's really bad, put on some shoes, brush my teeth and maybe fill up the gas tank before I could even get anywhere to use the internet. Some days that just felt like way too much work in my new, easeful life so I just didn't do it. Other days, by the time I made it to the internet, there was so much to do, that I didn't have time to post a blog. Thus, my blog has been neglected. I feel sad about that.

Apparently, I am a website designer! Who would have thought? I am currently "employed" to design three new sites and redo an old one. I did my own and LOVED it. I am actually, in between my paying gigs, redoing my site. A month ago I never would have thought that THAT would be what showed up to keep me in the dough.

And, apparently, I am also an artist!!! I don't know how THAT happened either since I have had a beautifully juicy story running my whole life that I am not an artist. Funny how the things that I didn't think I was are the things that are showing up to support me in this time of creation and expansiveness. I will have my very first showing in January!!! My art will be on sale in a facility that is on the gallery stroll here in Salt Lake for the entire month. I am flabbergasted!

I am surprised and amazed by all that is showing up for me. I am grateful to be blessed with a keen mind and creative inclinations. I am grateful that I feel more and more excited every day on this new adventure. I am grateful that the terror has subsided and now, there is only fear. With the fear, though, I feel good. It means I am alive because fear, I hear, is an every day occurrence. It's just what I do with that fear that makes or breaks me.

I am so DAMN EXCITED about life!!!

Oh... and I have been negligent in posting links to my Meditations for quite some time now. Sooooooo... here are the links to the ones you haven't been privy to.

Spinning Stories 6/23/08
Appreciating Difficulties 6/30/08
Back and Forth 7/07/08
Celebrating Life 7/14/08
Gentle Reminders 7/21/08
Home Base 7/28/08
Doing it Alone 8/04/08
Flying Without a Net 8/11/08
Loving Work-Arounds 8/18/08
Living Categories 8/25/08